Normal.

What is normal?

Can anyone tell me what it means?

No I mean really define what it means.

Didn't think so.

You wanna know why you can't? Cause "normal" is an illusion. People made up this illusion up to physc people into acting, dressing, talking, and being a certain way. And if god forbid you didn't act or dress or meet up with these expectations that "normal" has, then you would become the outcast, the nerd, the freak, etc. Some people think they know what normal is, but they don't cause it doesn't exist, or they go along with it so they fit in with what people think is "right".  The pressure's on, or so people think, they don't need to go along with this nonsense, you really don't. Break free from all this crap and be yourself, and if your so called "friends" don't like it then there not your true friends, and you leave and find peeps that like you for you. I know how tiring it can be putting on a fake smile, not saying what you really want to, and quite frankly it's bullshit. So I said too bad to those people who didn't except me for me when I finally saw through this crap and got the hell out, so I said to them "you know guys, one day maybe tomorrow or next week or maybe not even for 10 years, or maybe not even until your on your deathbed. When that time comes, you all are gonna look back and regret what your doing, no letting yourself be you, you honestly will. Then your going to sit alone without any of your so called "besties" with you cause you guys were never honest to each other, or even to yourselves. Your never gonna have any real memories, cause it's all lies, and your gonna wish like you never did in your life that you were yourselves, had some some real good times, laughs, jokes, relationships instead of this bullshit front you put up to please everyone but yourself, and i feel sorry for you all. They laughed in my face and said some things, but that's okay, one day they'll see. I happen to be one of the farthest things from "normal" and I totally embrace it, ask anyone close to me they'll tell you, and honestly it's way more fun this way. So girls, stop getting fake tans that make you look like you've just rolled in a bag of Doritos, stop putting on layers and layers of makeup on let your real face see the light of day, and PLEASE stop sticking your chest up and out when your trying to make a point, its obnoxious. Stop wearing clothes that barley cover you, I don't like feeling like I'm being flashed everytime I look at you. For the dudes, please stop wearing your pants around you ankles thinking that it's cool, it's not it looks ridiculous and you waddle and you could very much be making people late to class with your "sir swagga waddle/walk". Don't be rude to a girl you like, it doesn't make you look cool it's off putting and a serious turnoff, plus it's so second grade. Also PRETTY PLEASE stop itching your butt or family jewls, then try to make contact with us, it's seriously so friggin' gross. OH and one more thing peeps, if you could maybe at least think about stopping typing like this: "C wen I qit dha strenqth 2 leave yu Yu alwyz tel mi dhat yu need mi n I weak cuz I believe yu n i mad cuz I luv yu ! Uqh cnt take no mre dnt txt qoin 2 frickn bed </3 !" ~Source of a friend. Like seriously what does that even mean? Every time I read something like that I feel like I get dumber each time. Alright this is starting to sound preachy so I'm leaving. PEACE OUT!!!

FinishedFace

Hey peeps, and when I say "peeps" I mean Brian and Michelle since they are the only ones that probably give my shamazing blog the time of day, seriously. Anyway anyone who doesn't read this, it's your loss. Well by the title I bet you know what that means, I finished Happyface!!! I started it on Thursday night but didn't read much of it like only a few pages, then Friday I picked it up and finished it. Booyah. It was an awesome book, I really loved how the printing did look like a persons handwriting. I really enjoyed the pictures too, it was nice to have something to entertain the eye for once, who says your ever too old for picture books? You know whats weird? Happyface kinda reminded me of Charlie, you know from the book The Perks of Being a Wallflower. He reminded me of Charlie because their stories are so similar! They are seriously REALLY similar in some parts, have you noticed? For example: They were both pretty much nobodies, Happyface had a new start when he moved and changed schools, Charlie's changed when the new school year started. They both got a new group of friends, and they each had a girl in that group who they were totally infatuated with, but could never have. They both screwed up majorly at some point and temporarily lost all their friends and they both were all depressed about it. But they both found a way to fix it somehow, see how similar they are? Those are the few things that really popped into my mind when I was thinking about it, but throughout the entire book starting when Happyface moved I kept thinking of Charlie when I was reading. Oh another similarity they have, but not all of you can see it cause this is my opinion, they both found a way to peeve me to now friggin' end! Charlie was a crybaby, and Happyface was the town stalker, I mean come on who does that?! From the very moment he started school he stalked Grechen, if I was her I would not be friends with him, I would tell him to shove it up his ass and rotate. I'm serious, if I found out he stayed on the wrong bus to sit and stare at me and draw me, i'd be creeped the hell out like for real man! He deserves that newspaper title, The Kid in The Corner May Be Drawing You ,indeed he might. He might also be planning on ways to stalk the rest of your life. I got confused when I first found out his brother had died being drunk and driving with Chloe by the way, the girl Happyface was totally in love with, I know right that's what I said! If your confused read the book. Alright i'm done with this blog. WAIT!!! My bestfriend/sister Hana has a blog now, her name is "the green princess" I showed her how to do it and now she wants to to it. I'm such a good influence. She's over at my house right now, we were blogging together, but now we got things to do, people to see. PEACE OUT!!!

What the hell is that smell?!

It freaking stinks dude. Like I'm about to barf, seriously. Wait it's totally not in my house so don't be thinking that. I checked all over this place and it's not in here, I thinks it's in the hallway. It smells like someone put, like burnt chicken, mayo, ketchup, dog crap, maybe a dead person's foot, and some sweaty fat man sweat in a old air freshener can and sprayed it all over the freaking hallway outside my house. I know I'm sorry, I know that was brutal to read but at least your not smelling this crap. Oh my freaking god, if I see ONE more ExtenZe commercial I will lose my mind. I swear they got this thing on replay I've seen it like 13 times now, this can't be normal. Anyway, Michelle gave me a book to read on Friday and I finished it that night, the book was The Perks of Being a Wallflower" by Stephen Chbosky. It was a good book but sometimes trying to wrap your head around what this dude was saying or thinking, made me go "yo this dude needs to chill with all these big words man." Lolz just kidding I'm smarter than that. I loved how the whole entire book was written like letters to someone, and that someone was whoever was reading the book. The book was kinda weird/gross in some parts but I'm a big girl I can deal with it but you know still, sometimes someone doesn't wanna be relaxing reading a book then BAM!!! Your reading about how Charlie (the main character) discovered masturbation, and then your kinda like, "umm okay cool for you but lets not keep talking about this, please?" One more think about Charlie that kinda peeved me, he cried, a lot. See now don't get the wrong idea, I think it's great for guys to cry and stuff let it out, but Charlie did this like more then once a day and it kinda gets old after a while. If I ever had the chance to talk to him I'd be like "dude word of advice, are you listening? Okay so don't take this the wrong way, but girls normally don't like it when a dude cries more then they do. Are you understanding this? Knock that crying at the drop of a hat bussiness stuff off, kay? It's obnoxious. All with love Charlie now I gotta get going cause I'm in the middle of writing a blog, peace out." That's what I'd say, but with that aside Charlie reminds me of myself, he always got his face shoved up in a book and he writes good stuff and he has a good heart and a lot of love for his friends, sister, brother, and his parents. The last thing I'd like to say about Charlie is that I have respect for him. I know I didn't get to deep about the book but I'm kinda tired it's 4:19 in the morning and the smell is making me dizzy and lightheaded. I also just saw another ExtenZe commercial so... Yeah I'm leaving. PEACE OUT!!!

This is what will happen if you play with fire.

Mr Faye, I read the Catalyst on Friday too but after I put up the blog and saw how the text color was all messed up, I tried fixing it but nothing worked so I didn't wanna put up another messed up blog. So anyway back to the book,  I liked this book but if I were Kate, I would fill my pockets with stones. I don't think I could constantly share my room with somebody, never mind the girl who made life living hell for me. So Kate Malone's father is a priest and so when the Litch's house caught fire and they had to live somewhere else until the house was all fixed up, of course you know he was gonna offer his home. So Teri Litche was not what you would call a nice warm welcome person, or honest. She's kinda like BOOM all up in your face, and she's not scared to beat the crap out of someone. She was mean to Kate when they were in elementary school and then mean to everyone in high school. This is why I feel bad for Kate cause this is not some girl whose house had a fire, this is Teri Litcher, of all the freaking people in the world she had to share her space with the girl who made it her mission to make her life hell on earth when they were younger. Teri pisses me off in the beginning, but as the book goes on you kinda see a little more and learn more about her life. For example Mikey is not her little brother he is her son, figures. But when you find out that it's cause of her father, you kinda sit there for a second just thinking to yourself about how horrible that is. Then you feel sympathy and kinda get a better understanding of why she is the way she is. Back to how Teri pissed me off in the beginning, she has no freaking shame. She stole Kate's watch at a dinner made for the needy in Kate's house, that's number one. Number two the first night that her and Mikey slept there the next morning Kate woke up to find that her necklace from her boyfriend Mitch, was around her stumpy neck. If that were me I would have tackled her to the ground right then and there and shoved pepper up her nose, but that's just me. But of course Kate doesn't say jack so Teri gets away with it. That's number two, there are a lot of other things that Teri does that pisses me off but those two seem to jump at me the most. When Mikey dies from being electricuted, when you read that it kinda punches a whole in your stomach, cause that's just an awful thing for the family and friends that were all helping with the house and Kate and her friends and her dad and brother. With that happening the grief and mourning brings Kate and Teri closer together and it makes Teri seem more human. I think Kate was very strong for putting up with all the crap with Teri, but lets face it. That much irony, can only happen in a book.

Reading really passes the time.

Mr. Faye, i got the books you sent me today and i finished two of them already. Like you said the I heart you, you haunt me book took me like two minutes to read, it was a really good book. Lisa Schroeder is a very brilliant writer, i really liked how the whole entire book was written in like a poem formation. It was cool to read something differently like that, it gets boring reading the same formation over and over again. It was kinda sad reading it though, cause her boyfriend Jackson seemed like a really nice guy and that they were really in love and all that other gushy crap. That little dare game they had seemed fun, its fun being dared to to something awesome every once in a while. Something that you would never do unless someone dared you too cause sometimes people are to scared to go ahead and do it themselves, and maybe some people like having the attention and audience, and the cheers and applause that come after they complete the dare. I don't do dares anymore cause the last time i played that game i was swimming in a sea of perverted people and that kinda dampered my outlook on the dare game. Anyway, at the end when Ava told Jackson that he needed to leave that he didn't belong there anymore and it wasn't right this way, but that she would always remember what they shared together and that she would always love him. Then he told her "okay I'll leave but only if you give me all your guilt to take with me." that was really sad for me, but after she says her sorrys and lets go of the guilt, and he leaves when you read it a wave of peaceful kinda swipes over you and its like for a spilt second you become Ava and all the relief and peacefulness she finally gets, you experience it along with her. I think its great that Ava had all that support from her family and friends and i freaking love what she says at the end when shes sitting with her friends on her birthday; "I feel thankful for the best gift of all, it's the one wrapped around my heart with a big pink bow- then never-ending gift of friendship."

My love affair with English.

I love English, it's the one thing I'm 100% sure that I'm gonna have fun with this year. My English this year is the bomb diggity compared to last year. My English teacher last year was a poor excuse for a teacher who claimed she was an excellent teacher and the only thing she wanted to accomplish that year was to hopefully pass on her "genes" of loving and being great at English. She had spelled welcome wrong on the board, she spelled it like this "welcom" and a i heard a message on the wind later on saying that it had been there all day but no one decided to say anything. Until 6th period, the kid sitting behind me who kinda smelled like bad pickles, had said in a nasal voice "um excuse me miss not to be rude or anything of the sorts" he stopped coughed a really guttural unpleaseant noise then continued "but you spelled welcome wrong on the board." She stopped what she was doing whipped her head around stood still for a minute then said "well so i did" and started passing out papers, "well aren't you gonna fix it?" she said no that it was and that it didn't matter. Umm i'm pretty sure it does it spelled WRONG and this is English for crying out loud! Doing the English she assinged really sucked, it drained my love of English right out of me and she took it and flushed down the toliet. I was in an English coma, i did not expect to be woken up, until my new Engilsh teacher this year threw a couple of awesome books in my face and gave me back the intrest and spark i had for English. I now have newfound hope that every English teacher in the future, will not end my love affair with English.